Intentar explicar todo lo que ha pasado en las ultimas semanas en palabras seria simplemente imposible.Tendrias que haber estado alli.Tendrias que haberme visto llorar todo mi dolor, reir a carcajadas, bailar mientras el viento me despeinaba.Tendrias que haber visto mis ojos iluminarse y llenarse de vida, mi risa cambiar su melodia, mi alma vaciarse de mentiras, dejando que la verdad y Su amor lo inunde todo.Tendrias que haber estado ahi para observar un atizbo de como fui tocada por Su amor,y fui cambiada para siempre.
La semana pasada fue un punto decisivo del cambio y proceso de sanidad y libertad.Carmelita, la esposa del director de la Base, y Hannah,mi lider de grupo, me llevaron aparte y oraron por mi.Fue increible, un tiempo de renunciar a mentiras que durante tantos anios crei,remplazarndolas con la verdad y dejando que Dios trabajara en esas areas.Despues oraron y Dios les mostro lo que tenia en mente cuando me creo. Al ver el resultado final me quede sin palabras. Su proposito para mi vida era mas hermoso e increible de lo que yo imaginaba,y eso era tan solo el comienzo de todo lo que El queria hacer en mi! Fue....waaaaaaaaa no se ni como explicarlo hahaa.
Despues,esa misma semana,en mi uno-a-uno con Hannah empezamos a hablar de varias cosas.Una de ellas fue mis pulseras.Cuando le empece a explicar que las llevaba porque me las habian regalado mis amigos y todo,Dios me mostro que las llevaba por otro motivo.Habia estado deseando quitarmelas durante bastante tiempo, pero no me sentia una persona lo suficientemente interesante,no sentia que fuera alguien a quien valiera la pena conocer,asi que me escondia detras de las pulseras para que la gente me hablara.Supongo que ellas me daban mi identidad.Asi que despues de mucho hablar y animada por Hannah,finalmente decidi dar ese paso y me las quite.Esto sonara algo tonto...pero lo primero que pense cuando vi mis brazos sin ellas fue "Wow! Tengo unas muniecas realmente hermosas!" Pero ahora que lo pienso, en realidad estaba admirando la belleza de la libertad que estaba experimentando por primera vez (:
Esta semana fue....akjfaslkdjdfjslkfjskdjfl.De nuevo las palabras me fallan,no alcanzan! El tema era "El corazon de Papa de Dios" (no se si esta bien traducido haha) Fue un tiempo de mucha sanidad. Todos decian que seria una semana muy buena,algunos decian que llorariamos,otros hablaban de la libertad y sanidad que ellos mismos habian experimentado.Yo llore desde el primer dia,y desde entonces no pare. El viernes nuestro orador-maestro(como quiera que se diga), Doug Easterday, junto con su esposa y el staff preparon una sesion de oracion y perdon. Perdonamos viejas heridas, recurdos que dolian, entregamos pregntas que ni siquiera recordabamos...Pero mi parte favorita fue cuando Doug(nuestro orador) nos llamos a las chicas y nos hizo formar un circulo.Entonces, en nombre de todos los hombres que nos habian lastimado a lo largo de nuestras vidas, nos pidio perdon.Fue una a una y nos pregunto" Puedes perdonarme".Yo fui la primera,y cuando me miro a los ojos rompi a llorar como nunca antes.No fueron 2 o 3 lagrimas,fueron gritos, llanto que habia estado atrapado dentro de mi, temblaba y seguia llorando.Doug me dio un abrazo de Papa mientras me decia" Todo va a esar bien, no merecias lo que te hicieron,no lo merecias,deja de creerlo,dejalo ir..."
Podria intentar explicarte lo que significo todo esto,pero seria imposible hacerte entender el impacto de esto en mi.Creo que ni yo misma alcanzo a ver su magnitud.Solo se que me siento mas ligera, un muro se ha roto dentro de mi y ya nada volvera a ser lo mismo.
Esta semana que viene viajaremos a una conferencia en otra base de JUCUM y sera un tiempo increible.Estoy muy emocionada!!
Estamos tambien muy emocionados por el viaje a Tailandia! Por favor sigue orando por las finanzas para este viaje! Sabemos que Dios proveera y sera algo increible.
GRACIAS.Gracias a los que habeis hecho posible el que yo este hoy aca a traves de vuestras oraciones y ofrendas.No creo que llegueis algunna vez a comprender lo que este tiempo ha hecho en mi, pero GRACIAS por haber elegido formar parte de este viaje.
"No morire sino que vivire y contare lo que Dios ha hecho en mi" Salmos 119:17
Gail (:
Trying to explain with words all that has been going on these last weeks would be just impossible.You should have been there.You should have seen me cry all my pain, laugh like never before, dance while the wind played with my hair.You should have seen my eyes be filled with light and life, my laugh change its melody, my soul be emptied of lies, allowing the truth and God's love touch each corner of myself. You should have been there to see a glimpse of how I was engulfed with His love and was changed forever.
Last week was a turning point in my life and in the process of healing and freedom.Carmelita, the director's wife, and Hannah, my small group leader, got together with me and prayed for me. It was amazing, a time of renouncing to the lies that I had believe all this years and replacing them with the truth,and letting God work of those areas.Then they prayed and God showed them what He had on mind when He created me.To see the final result left me speechless. His purpouse in for my life was more beautiful and amazing than I ever imagined, and all that was only the beginning of all that He wanted to do in me! It was...waaaaaa I don't even know how to explain it! hahaha
That same week, on my one-on-one with Hannah, we begin to talk about some things.One of them: my bracelets.When I started to explain to he that I was wearing them because they were a gift from my friends, God showed me that I was actually keeping them for another reason.I had been wanting to take them off for a long time, but I didnt' feel like I was interesting enough, I felt like I wasn't a person worth-knowing, so I chose to hide behind my bracelets so people would talk to me.I guess I allowed myself find my identity on them.So after talking a lot, and encouraged by Hannah, I finally decided to take that step and I took them off. This might sound silly, but the first thing I thought hen I saw my arms without them was " Wow! I have very beautiful wrists!" But now that I think about it, was I was really looking at was the beauty of the freedom I was experiencing for the very first time (:
This week was..aksjdksajdkjdksjkdjask. Once again, words are not enough! The subject was"The father Heart of God". It was a time of a lot of healing.Eveybody said that it would be a really good week,some said that we would cry, others talked about the freedom and healing that they had experienced. I cried from the very first day, and couldn't stop. On friday our speaker(Doug Easterday), His wife and the staff prepared time for prayer and forgiveness. We forgave old wounds, memories that hurted, we layed down questions that we didn't even remember were there...But my favourite part was when Doug made us girls stand in a circle. He asked us forgivenes in the name of all the men that had hurted us in the past. He went one by one and asked us" Can you forgive me?". I was the first one, and when he looked me in the eyes I bursted into tears like never before. I'm not talking about 2 or 3 tears.I was sobbing and trembling, letting out all the pain that had been hidden inside of me.Doug gave me a Daddy-hug,and as he allowed me to cry and cry, he softly told me " It;s going to be ok,you did not deserve what they did to you,you did not deserve it,stop believing it, let it go...." I could try to explain to you all that this meant to me,but it would be impossible to make you fully understand the impact of this in me.I still can't.I only know that I feel lighter, a wall has been broken inside of me and nothing will even be the same.
This week we'll be taveling to a conference at another YWAM base,and it will be and AMAZING time! I'm SO excited!
We're also excited about our outreach to Thailand! Please keep praying for us,for unity, flexibility, finances.... (:
THANK YOU.Thanks to all of you who have made it possible for me to be here trough your prayers and offerings.I don't think you'll ever understand what this time has done in me, but THANK YOU for chosing to be part of this journey.
" I shall not die but live and declare what the Lord has done in me"
Ps 119:17
Gail (:
